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A slithering sodding bug in my eye. [Nov. 29th, 2006|01:07 am]
The Downward Spiral

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The fight with Angel had pushed me over the edge. No, not the sodding puppeted side of me that the First chose to make its bitch.

It pushed me, Spike, with a soul over the edge. This bloody had to stop. I mean, for all I knew the First could make this spell that Giles, Red and monkey boy had planned for me.

I had tried to kill Buffy. I didn't even know if that was true, because I couldn't sodding remember, but I don't think that I was trying to make love with her when I lost the time. Had a hard time believing that and more then that, my rage was so intense, that I had bitten into Angel.

Couldn't understand that one. Could see the First trying to buggering control me in order to eliminate the slaya from its path, but Angel? He was evil right now, and it would stand to reason that the First wouldn't want me to harm him, but there it was. I had bitten him. The First must have wanted me to harm him. Probably didn't like him too bloody much. Finally, something to almost smile about. Bloody almost.

Giles was getting a sodding kick out of this, too. No doubt about it. He wanted to stick that thing in my eye and my inclination was to say that if anything else got put into my head, then there wouldn't be any room left for my brain, but knew that Buffy wasn't in the mood for hysterics with Angel on the loose and demons everywhere in the city. Besides, Giles would just make a remark about the size of my brain, anyway, and if we waited, there stood the chance that the First could make me its bitch again and then I might hurt other people or be forced into getting staked by the woman that I loved.

Willow chanted and the thing came to life, and I was sodding concerned.

"I don't know what this bloody thing is going to do to me. Just so everyone is clear, I want this sodding trigger gone, but I am not the one who came up with this idea, in case I lose the time again and start biting people that I loath's necks."

The thing worked its way up my cheek and squirmed directly into my eye and let me just say, it didn't sodding tickle.

I grabbed my right eye and held it, as the thing slithered into my brain. "OWWWWWWWWW."

[Buffy, Giles, Willow, Xander and Dawn]
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From: badass__buffy
2006-11-29 04:52 pm (UTC)
I forgot about Angel for a minute. The thing Giles had put in Spike's eye was hurting him. I panicked, how could I not after seeing what the First could do to him first hand. This wasn't going to work, we had to take it out before it did any more damage.

I took a couple of steps toward Spike, then stopped. There was no more screaming and he had lowered his hand into his lap with the other one. A blank, sorta dreamy, expression took over Spike's face and I began to relax. Whatever that thing was doing inside his head, it didn't seem to be bad. Not yet at least.

"What's happening?" I asked, almost completely amazed at Spike's eery silence. "Is it working?"

I felt Dawn's hand slid into mine and glanced up to see her eyes fixed as tightly on Spike as mine had been. If we weren't watching out for Vamps, who was? Quickly I scanned the area and saw nothing. We were good, for now. Who knows how long that will last though.

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[User Picture]From: backintweed
2006-11-30 05:08 am (UTC)
"I don't know what this bloody thing is going to do to me. Just so everyone is clear, I want this sodding trigger gone, but I am not the one who came up with this idea, in case I lose the time again and start biting people that I loath's necks."

Obviously, Spike was directing that at me. I knew with certainty that he didn't loathe Buffy or Dawn or even Willow. It was directed at me. I had come up with the idea for this spell and frankly, it was all based on how much Spike was willing to let this thing work.

"Is it working?"

Buffy was on alert, ready to handle anything, which was also most fortuitous, considering that Spike, potentially, wasn't our only threat at the moment and in this city.

I looked around, briefly, and there was nothing but darkness for the mom...moment, anyway.

"It will only work if Spike is willing to let it work. It should pull the trigger forth, so I either anticipate him being violent, or actually saying the trigger word, or phrase, or whatever it may be."
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[User Picture]From: powerless_scoob
2006-12-01 08:29 pm (UTC)
"It will only work if Spike is willing to let it work. It should pull the trigger forth, so I either anticipate him being violent, or actually saying the trigger word, or phrase, or whatever it may be."

He screamed and grabbed at his head for a second time, and for a minute there, he was humming a song that i had never heard before, which wasn't at all hard to understand because I wasn't alive in the early twentieth century and didn't really get into jingles like that. Okay, so I liked 'Wind beneath my wings', but at least that was sort of recent.

As soon as he started humming the song, he stopped. It wa slike two seconds, and then he stopped grabbing at his head.

I was of the thought that this might actually work. I was of that thought until Spike pulled the crazy and lunged up at all of us, and unfortunately, before Buffy could stop him, he got his hands on Dawn and he was way more savage then any other vampire that I had seen before. Even more savage then Angelus or the way he used to be.

I didn't like him, never really had, but he was sort of okay. Right now, he was just scary. Fortunately, before he could hurt Dawn, Buffy kicked him in the face with a side kick, that sent him flying. I tossed her the rope.
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From: lil_sis_dawn
2006-12-04 10:51 pm (UTC)
Buffy seemed worried so I took her hand and gave it a little squeeze. Spike started humming and then screamed again and then...nothing. It was working, I think. I mean, he seemed pretty calm and the screaming had stopped, so that was a plus. When I looked around I was sure everyone was thinking the same thing I was; that we had finally found a way to fix Spike.

Buffy's hand was suddenly yanked from mine. At first I thought she had done it. That is, until I felt Spikes hands on my shoulders and heard him snarling like a wild animal in my ear. It was my turn to scream.

I pushed back against Spike's chest but he was so strong and he didn't even seem to know who I was. His eyes were so close to me but it was like they were a million miles away, like he wasn't even in there at all.

"Buffy!" I screamed just before she kicked him in the face.

Spike let go and I fell forward, just managing to catch myself before my face smashed into the ground. Slowly I lowered myself and banged my fists against the pavement. I was so sick of being the weak one, the one Spike and Angelus went for first because I was the easiest prey.

I saw Buffy catch the rope over my head and decided I should get up before anything else decided to take advantage of me while I was down there.
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[User Picture]From: railroad_spike
2006-12-05 01:53 pm (UTC)
Knew that I had lost the time again, but was back now when I felt Buffy's kick and then saw her with the rope.

Felt her wrapping it around me bloody tightly. Was she just tying up the hands and legs so that I couldn't grab at something if I lost the time again?

Wondered what I had done, but all of this was happening in the fraction of a second and it didn't take me long to realize that I had gone after the niblet. Everyone was staring at me and Dawn just look kinda sodding pissed off. Let Buffy do this deed, but knew how the niblet was feeling. Around Buffy, or Dawn, or even maybe Willow, this was okay, but getting handled like this in front of Giles and Xander really yanked the chain.

Once Buffy knotted up the arms I became cranky. This sodding wasn't working. First was still making me its bitch and all they could do was put something in my head that was still there, that wasn't doing a bloody thing to help any of us.

"Don't think this bloody thing is working..."

Should have said it more irritated-like, because they seemed to think it was working. "What in the bloody hell are you looking at me like that for? Thing didn't work. All that it did was make me attack Dawn..."
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From: badass__buffy
2006-12-06 03:36 pm (UTC)
Reaction happened even before coherent thought could. Spike had lunged at Dawn and I had kicked him away like a soccer ball that had come to close to my teams goal. The rope Xander had tossed at me was in my hands and I was quickly wrapping it around Spike's before anything started to make any kind of sense to me at all.

Giles had stuck that thing in Spike's eye. Actually it had slithered it's own way in but that wasn't the point. Spike had screamed, then went into this sort of trans thing before screaming again and going postal on my sister. So what was I missing that everyone else seemed to understand?

The humming, had it been the humming?

"Don't think this bloody thing is working..."

But it was, wasn't it? That thing in his head had found something. Found it and triggered it. Why else would he have attacked Dawn?

"What in the bloody hell are you looking at me like that for? Thing didn't work. All that it did was make me attack Dawn..."

"I think you attacked Dawn because it is working." I said standing up and looking over at Giles to see if he thought the same thing.
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[User Picture]From: backintweed
2006-12-06 09:06 pm (UTC)
It was a strange convergence of faces with Spike. We were efforting to salvage him...to save him from this trigger, when all it did was further my desire to eliminate him further. I knew that Buffy wouldn't allow this, but the savagery that he showed when that humming activated him was proof to me of the dangerous nature of Spike at its core. It was the version of him that he didn't show, even when evil. He would act...act cool...cool or ineffectual when evil, but would still kill and torment. The true Spike had just been on display and there was nothing to say that it wouldn't return again.

"What in the bloody hell are you looking at me like that for? Thing didn't work. All that it did was make me attack Dawn..."

For all intents and purposes, he had threatened Xander and myself, I believed before and now, he was so ignorant that he didn't even realize that it had worked.

"I think you attacked Dawn because it is working."

I rather enjoyed Buffy kicking him. I wished that i could convince her to kill him, which was the safest thing for all of the powerless girls currently staying at her house...Still...

"She's right, Spike. It was that hum. It was a song. You hummed it and then you donned fangs and sought to attack the weakest or nearest person to you. If you can remember the song again, then we can most assuredly deactivate the trigger."

That was a show. I truly hoped that he couldn't and that Buffy came to her senses and put him down, even if it was that we needed him in the fight against the First Evil. Sometimes sacrifices in the name of the war and not the battle, needed to be made.
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[User Picture]From: powerless_scoob
2006-12-07 02:43 pm (UTC)
"She's right, Spike. It was that hum. It was a song. You hummed it and then you donned fangs and sought to attack the weakest or nearest person to you. If you can remember the song again, then we can most assuredly deactivate the trigger."

And I'm here thinking, do we really want to deactivate the trigger? I mean he could be a help, sure, but he was such a pain in the ass, and let us not forget the whole rape thing. He's better off as ashes...

I looked around to see if I had said that aloud. Apparently I hadn't. Thank God. Wait...

Maybe I should say that aloud?

No, Buffy would turn me into something gel-like and leave me on these filthy streets.

"Do you know what it is or why the First chose it?"

"Yeah, I mean, she's onto something there, Spike. Why would the first choose that boring little ditty for you? I would have thought for sure that you would have got something more upbeat like the Psychedlic Furs or even slayer..."
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From: lil_sis_dawn
2006-12-11 07:16 pm (UTC)
"Slayer..." I giggled.

I had no idea who they were other then their band name was Slayer but it was still funny. I looked around and no one else seemed to get the joke. God, was everyones funny born cut out while they were sleeping or what? Apparently I was immune to funny bone removal operations. Sheesh.

"Oh," I said, suddenly coming down off my humor high with my next thought. "You didn't actually mean slayers, as in their blood, did you?" I asked Xander with a hopeful look. Because if he meant slayer, well then..that would just be bad.

I shrank back slightly. Embarrassed and a little sick to my stomach after everything that happened. I just really wanted to go home and curl up in my nice warm bed and watch TV. Some times I hate being the vampire slayers sister.
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[User Picture]From: railroad_spike
2006-12-12 04:16 am (UTC)
"She's right, Spike. It was that hum. It was a song. You hummed it and then you donned fangs and sought to attack the weakest or nearest person to you. If you can remember the song again, then we can most assuredly deactivate the trigger."

Sounded better when Buffy said it.

"Do you know what it is or why the First chose it?"

Thought of the song and ignored monkey boy's chidings and ramblings about my taste in music.

Don't bloody remember the name of the song. Mostly remember the hum. Nothing special about it really, just something that my mother used to hum to me when I was youn...a child..."

Got looks and felt this was bloody well useless.

"Look, can't be that song. It was just my mum that used to sing it to me and she could hardly be the First's model of what to use..."

Then again, what I had done to her and then taken away from her. But still...why that ditty? Why her? How did we stop it? Even if we bloody well knew it, how did we stop it?
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From: badass__buffy
2006-12-20 01:44 am (UTC)
I don't get it. If Spike didn't know why or how the First was using his mother and that song against him then how were we supposed to make it stop? I mean, there had to be something different about that memory from all the others, right? It wasn't just like the First crawled inside his head and played eenie-meenie-minie-mo, stopping on his mom and that song, was it? It couldn't be, could it? It just seemed to simple and the First wasn't exactly known to be simple. It liked to play head games, we'd all seen it. So what was the game and what did it have to do with the song?

Willow's cell rang twice before she realized it was even ringing and turned away from us to answer it. No doubt it was Kennedy calling to make sure everything was alright and ask if they had found us yet. I wasn't interested in who was on the phone anyway. The only thing I was interested in was finding out why that song made Spike go spastic whenever he heard it.

"Can't you remember anything else, Spike? The First has to have picked that song for a reason."
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[User Picture]From: backintweed
2006-12-21 02:23 pm (UTC)
"Look, can't be that song. It was just my mum that used to sing it to me and she could hardly be the First's model of what to use..."

Being a demon, soul or no soul, Spike was obviously quite adept at lying, and it was all there to be captured in the way that his eyes were shifty when he was giving us the explanation about his Mother.

"Can't you remember anything else, Spike? The First has to have picked that song for a reason."

I took a stance with bravado, approaching him, making deep eye contact. What could he do to me with Buffy standing right here? Besides, we needed this answer and this...this trigger eliminated before we proceeded with anything.

"The song, your mother...Spike, these things are unquestionably behind the trigger. Something must have happened in the past with your mother? What did you do to her, Spike?"
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[User Picture]From: powerless_scoob
2006-12-24 01:52 pm (UTC)
"Can't you remember anything else, Spike? The First has to have picked that song for a reason."

Buffy was on Spike now, and it was about time. She was the one that needed to make him help us out here.

Giles then started in on Spike and basically said that he must have done something to his mother to give the First a reason to use him as its bitch. I found myself wondering what it was? Did Giles mean after he was a vampire or was he referring to something kinky that old William might have done to his mother in the powedery wig days? I didn't think I wnated to hear that one.

Before Spike could answer, Willow got a call, and answered it and then said Cordelia's name. What did she want?

"That was Cordelia."

"Yeah, we kinda got that by the look of disgust on your face when you said her name after answering, Will..."

"They have Angelus."

Great, vampalooza, and I mean losers. Here we were, helping Spike and now, we were supposed to help Angelus.

"Reinsouling spell time, I presume? So if that's the case, what do we do about Spike and the trigger, here?"
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From: lil_sis_dawn
2007-01-07 04:47 am (UTC)
Wow. Angelus really got around huh? I mean, one minute he's here and the next he's been captured and we're supposed to drop everything to go reinsoul him. I guess we really didn't have much of a choice. I could already here Giles and Buffy now. Something about having to wait, one thing at a time, we've handled Spike's trigger this long...blah blah blah. Nothing like multitasking to get your blood running. Which, now that I think about it, isn't such a good thing when dealing with vampires.

"Reinsouling spell time, I presume? So if that's the case, what do we do about Spike and the trigger, here?"

Hey?! In my head much? I crossed my arms in front of my and looked at Xander. It wasn't one of those thanks a lot for stealing my thunder looks, it was more like a, no wonder I used to have the hots for you, we're like two peas in a pod, look. Even though he wasn't looking at me I did everything I could to hide my smile. Xander would always be cool in my book.

"So," I said turning toward my sister. "We wait right? Reinsoul Angel and worry about Spike later?" And, just as I had thought, Buffy looked to Giles for the answer.
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[User Picture]From: railroad_spike
2007-01-11 11:42 pm (UTC)
"They have Angelus."

First thing that came to me was who had Angelus? Had to be rogue slaya. She was the only one that could stop him around here since Buffy was right here.

Second thought was that I was going to get put on the sodding back burner where the trigger within me could marinate within me and come out again and really hurt somebody next time around.

"Reinsouling spell time, I presume? So if that's the case, what do we do about Spike and the trigger, here?"

Looked at Buffy. Knew that her precious Angel was going to bloody come first here because Red already knew what to do with him.

I was up for it, bloody well supposed, except that a disclaimer had to be put up here.

"We wait right? Reinsoul Angel and worry about Spike later?"

Looked at Red, then Giles and Buffy.

"Yeah, niblet. Will already knows how to reinsoul broody pants and this trigger, more of the mystery. May as well take care of the known first and worry about Spike killing somebody later, and on board here, Angel can help watch me and I can hurt him if I get bloody puppeted again, so it sounds good to me. Just want everyone here to know that if I start humming that little ditty to be on bloody guard..."
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